Sorry babe... I've been home late these few days... dun have the guts to go home early... and whenever i call u your phone is off... so i can't contact you... at work cos i'm at call centre i needa off my phone...

I'm sorry that I made you worried... finally today i let it all out... finally today i cried... after meeting my friends and chill... i realise that since he put down so fast and already move on... i cannot be that pitiful little thing... i need to move on also... but cos i given him everything... it might not be that easy...

I wont go for another guy just to forget him... its too risky... that guy might end up be a wrong decision too... I'm pining all my hopes on friends le... I want my bisexual life back... i want to find back my playfulness again... I believe that friends is the best remedy to heal me... but pining hope on patch up... i wont... he have destroy my last straw of hope til i'm a pathetic little gal... i wont look into it... and relationship wont be my cup of tea now...

I believe that I can face him with a smile... maybe be together like a best friend like what we always were before we are together... I want to be with my girlfriends... i miss them lots... i want to be with you all cos you all give me the support that makes me walk thru these...

But nevertheless, if times goes back and let me choose... I think i will still wanna be with him... but i wont be taht serious anymore... I wont take wat he says as wat he says... i wont let him coax me of moving out rasa... and i wont let him coax me to stop being brother to my guy friends... heez... but everything happens for a reason... I've grown and see a better side of the world because of him... he have bring me joy... sorrow... and pain... but i hope you wont feel its his fault... cos he do have his stand... and he do have his reason for doing so... and reason is not impt cos they are half excuses... the main point is this relationship can't carry on... a clap needs 2 hands...

I'm using my dad's lousy phone with short batt lifespan... so it always flat during i'm out... cos my phone is hotline lol... alright babe... adious amigoes...